3 days straight

21^st April

I would like to wish my cute spoilt little girlfriend, Siti Suhaila, A happy birthday, May all your dreams and wished come true. This is my third greet for her..so I won’t write too much about it. Much love

22^nd April

Ah I am now 21 years old. Still young I guess..I hardly celebrated my birthday for the past 10 years I think. But I understand about what has been going on for the past years..Have I really changed?? I don’t think so really. Maybe some improvements but not too much to be noticeable..I’ve always been the WEIRD one, and it still goes on till this day. I’m not saying that it’s a bad thing. I’m quite proud of it as it makes me feel different and I know that I’m not the only one. I’ve thought about it and I’ve decided to stay the same and change things that I can’t keep any longer; the laziness, unfocused, easily distracted, unorganised and some other things. I don’t mind being a hardcore gamer, open minded and all. It’s me.

Anyways, I would like to give thanks to the people who have sent greetings though MSN messenger, Friendster, Facebook, mobile SMS and my Blog chat box: -

My Family, Siti Suhaila (my GF), Amirul Anizam (my best friend), Faiz, Munique, Safrina, Fatyn Izzati, Effa, Akinorbaishu, Hassan, Zaimah ( My ruruchan), Hadee, Hanz, Azieziey, Hj Khairul, Beah, Geemah, Ramzi, Mashes, Muneerah, Dalilah, Azma, Elly, Arif Zainal, Sufri Ismail

I would also like to give a special thanks to:

Illa:

for always being there for me..and always give me the support I needed

Effa:

For posting up my birthday in her blog, even added a picture of me in it. I wonder where she got it.hmmm..ahahaha.Thanks girl.i’ll keep my end of the bargain. Just keep reminding me :p

Friendster and facebook:

For your birthday remainders, thanks to that friends that I’m not close with gave me greetings. There certain people that I thought would give me greetings. But owh well, that’s life..it’s always unexpected ;)

And most importantly, Babu (mom):

my main reason for living and to keep on going with my life. She sent me a message that I will always in my heart and mind all the time..

“Happy 21^st Birthday Mi, semoga Allah sentiasa meberkati dan melindungi emy (thats me) dimana2 saja may success and happiness be with you always, so now you are the Man of the house. I love you and enjoy your day in Japan”

Thanks bu :’) and thank you everyone

I’m grateful to everyone for that day as they made it a more enjoyable day even though we are miles away, and plus the fact I was in Japan.hehehe. I spent most of my money on modelling equipment and a model. I had to buy something right? Something I like to do..and thats it ;)

Just for this day || The model I bought

23^rd April

This is another special day because it’s me and illa’s 15^th anniversary and also the month last year that it became official. I still remember that time when we shocked both Ariffin and Putri that time, ended up getting beat up by them for putting up a good act and not telling the truth about our relationship. I was that good. ehehehe :p illa had her reasons for making me not tell anyone then.

Back then

Hours thats worth

Finally after 2 months at sea, I get to take shore leave at lumut. Unfortunately, something happened that day that reduced the number of hours I have to spend for shore leave. The BGC office decided to come on board with the new on-signers to hold a survey. They said it’ll only be for an hour. So I believed. Next thing I know, it took almost 2 fucking hours. Longer than planned and it wasn’t half finish. Luckily one of the guys who are going for shore leave as well asked them if we could go. I didn’t want to say anything since the MD (Managing Director was around). To be honest, I was already ticked and there’s no way I could hide it as I was having my shore leave interrupted. Most of the guys knew just by looking at my expression. I was really ticked off. Ready to blow and cause unnecessary trouble. Enough about that..

30 minutes later, there was I, back in Brunei (Although for just a few hours). My dad picked me up at the gate. He was about to leave me as he waited for more than 2 hours (can’t blame him). So we zoomed off home.

Back home, I get to see my whole family and my grandparents again. I was really shocked when I went to my grandparent’s room. My granddad cried the moment he saw in the room. He was happy to see me again. So I sat down beside him. Telling him that everything is ok. A lot went through my mind that moment but I won’t go there. After hugging and talking to my mom, played guitar heroes on the new RED PS2, we went off to the mall to buy some stuff to bring back to the ship.

Something ridiculously stupid happened at the mall, it was after I was deciding on what game on wanted to buy for my Xbox. I told my mom that didn’t have any money with me so I had to go to the ATM machine.

*at the ATM Machine*

*inserted my ATM card, entered PIN, and asked for Balance Enquiry*

*######*

*......INCORRECT PIN CODE...*

Me: “??!!!!....Wait..Wasn’t that the correct PIN?!!*

*enter PIN again *

*#####*

*......INCORRECT PIN CODE..*

Grabs head and shouts, “HOLY SHIT!!!!......I FORGOT MY FUCKING PIN CODE!!!”

So I sort of panicked and went back to EGM,

Me: ” Errr...Bu, I forgot my PIN”

Adi: “ahahahaha...dude, what the fuck man?? How the hell did you forget?”

Babu: “ Astah, Jadi cemana tah tu?”

Me: “Errr..I tried twice”

Adi: “shit...you know what’ll happen the third time right??”

Me: “ I know!!!! DX”

Babu: “So what you’re gona do mi?”

*After a short quiet moment*

Me: “ I will try 1 last time. I think I got it (it was actually another wild guess). I’ll take the risk”

Adi: “ Yeah, Kalau nda mau.. Just tell the bank about it ja”

Me: “Yeah”

*went back and tried again*

*######*

*....PLEASE ENTER INSTRUCTIONS..*

Me: * YYYYESSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahahahahah!!!

Well, something like that. It was great. After buying my stuff, we went back home. I played GOD HAND on the PS2 with my bro. Half an hour later, I was in the car with my dad, on the way back to Lumut. I felt stupid and mean, not talking to my dad. So I started a conversation with him about fishing. I was playing on going fishing with him and my bro at sea when I come back from the ship. It felt better that way.

This all (some things were missing) happened from 4.30pm to 7.30pm. That’s how long I got to spend with my family. I have to say... Babu, Adi and Ajim..my family...They’re actually the best of the best of friends that I actually have :’) I will always miss them. Cheers

its official

We have just confirmed that we will be leaving japan tomorrow. The weather have not improved since this morning. Which means that we will be on time in reaching Lumut which is on the 15th April. Hopefully, I don't have to wake early in the morning again for bridge preparations.

Just checked on my laptop to find out that illa was online while I was gone playing Devil May Cry 4. Sent a message to her from Japan, she said that she couldn't connect and as I figured, "menyamal". Later then..

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I've been wearing this fucking uniform for the whole day for no fucking reason *spits*

Another day without shore leave

Mood/Feeling - Bored, Nothing to do
Listening to - Senses Fail - Can't be saved
I am - waiting to be called up to bridge for departure
rather be - work out at gym for more than an hour

The ship is still in Sodegaura unfortunately. We arrived yesterday noon. Had the usual watch from 8am-12pm with the Third Officer and the two captains. Like always during departure or arrival at port, there's more pressure. In Japan, I have to plot radar or visual bearings every 6 minutes, where else upon arrival at Lumut, I have to take radar and visual bearings every 3 minutes the closer we are to berth. Which means, I have find a known object around the ship that is on the chart, take the visual bearing of it, take the range of the object from the radar, plot it on the charts and write down the bearings and range into the log book. Quite a lot of work if you did for around 3 hours, cause thats what happened. I may only be a Cadet but I would loved to be given the responsibility such as that of the third officer. I do more my work more seriously that way. But the problem is I need to cool down. Like what the chief mate said.ahahahaha

After all the moorings are done, the fibre optics and cargo pipes are connected, cargo operations may begin and ballasting along with it. I wasn't going for shore leave this time cause I wanted to take leave later at Lumut. So I expected to be called up at the CCR (Cargo Control Room) to help the chief with cargo operations. I was actually excited to get to work surprisingly. But then, the chief told me that I'm not required cause he wanted to test the new cadet who just signed on to this ship. Felt upset cause I was just a first trip cadet. and the other guy was having his 2nd trip now.So I decided to just go away and continue chatting with illa and blogging..which I fucked up later after that :s so couldn't post a new entry

Right now, I'm in Akin's room waiting for orders from the chief. We're still in Japan. We couldn't leave port due to bad weather conditions.Guess thats about it..later

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Owh yeah, Akin decided to iron my hair since its always messy and most of the officers are complaining about it. here ;)

half way there

Mood/Feeling - Tired, Frustrated
Listening to - The Sleeping - Don't Hold back
I am - just blogging and chattin
rather be - playing guitar heroes with my bros

Alright, I've been on this ship for 1 and a half month already. I've done alot but the problem is, I have done any of my REAL WORK. I don't have a single signature in my record training book. Which is really bad..for being on this ship for more than a month..its really bad. Stuarts' right; "get a fucking initiative zul'. Yes, I've got to. I'm not going anywhere just doing the work and not learning anything. This is FUCKED UP. Seriously, it is. I need to start reading on RULES OF THE ROAD or COLREG. The most important rule is rule 5;

"Every vessel shall at all times maintain a proper lookout by sight and hearing as well as all available means appropriate in the prevailing circumstances and conditions as to make a full appraisal of the situation and of the risk of collision"


Now I have to remember the rules on Distress Signals. Its really long and i haven't started putting it into my head yet. Next I have to understand the lights and buoy systems.

The Familiarization task that was suppose to be done last month..is not done..at all. Deep shit I'm in. I'm going to start asking the second officer to give me a few signatures tomorrow. I must. This looks bad on me for sure. Thanks to my old lazy habits. Opportunities are there. I just need to be more focused and serious in the things I do. Once that's done I have to start doing my task and write my reports.

For bridge watches, I have to make sure that I keep updating my navigation workbook. Its just as important as my Training Record Book. Lastly, I need to answer the questions the third officer keeps asking me. I found some of the answers. I need to find the rest. Have to things back around.

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towel - "you wanna get high?"