so typical

Yesterday was another display of why I don't like my fellow country men, the common ones. There's always this hostile and disrespectful attitude. Be it in the work place, at school or a hang out..

Whenever a foreigner tells them somethings, could be an order or just trying to start a joke, they don't like it..it pisses them off. At the end, they will always say "Cari kelahi ia ani, alum ia kenal orang BRUNEI" or something like that. It's that last bit of the sentence that I find really depressing. It's giving an impression that WE (Bruneians) are like this. The SAMSENG attitude. Fuckers think they own the world or something. It makes US look bad. I hate it.

Another would be the problem of showing respect, yesterday during the Mooring Briefing, a fellow Bruneian was clearly showing how disrespectful to the Chief Officer, who was an Indian..a muslim indian..Whenever he was stressing about safety (Which is what I like about Shell honestly), he keep saying "Whatever lah!!", "Not my problem lah", "I don't care wah"..all that -.- and talking this way to the Chief Officer?! the C/O is 2nd in command on the deck side. I was furious at the time. Being a cadet, I haven't the slightest authority to talk back at him. I mean, the C/O may be a foreigner, he's quite a nice guy. Indians are nice people actually. They're not as hostile as the guy I just mentioned.

I'm really glad that majority of my friends don't have this sort of attitude. Very Thankful for that. I'd stay away from them if they did. I'm not really close to anyone with such attitude towards the other race. I find it unacceptable, disgraceful..especially to our country. It's already bad enough as it is.

cheers..

half dead

this is what I hate about work and study..

especially the 12-4am watch..

fucking hell..

and fuck you..whoever deserves it..

Why can't I get a good fucking sleep before the watch..

I can't live for the next few weeks with just 4hours of sleep everyday..

Maybe some people can..

but I can't..

I feel like I'm going to pass out anytime now..

this is a serious problem..

especially to my asthma problems..

damn it..

fuck...

work in 10 minutes...

anyone got any advice?

if you have, thanks...

cheers.....

weak -.- ....

guns...i need guns!!

argh~ i miss playing COD4 -.-

shooting the living hell out of the other players..never felt better..

customize my own class with own set of weapons and skills...excellent..

dodging snipers..i hate those fuckers..

sneaking up behind them to find out that a claymore waits for me..I hate them too...

i also miss getting myself shot and laughed at..damn those players..

miss tossing a grenade into the empty air hoping that i'll get a lucky kill..yes I love that...

love using the SAS..the British..They're actually al ot cooler in this game..

the spetsnaz and Opp for are annoying..."Granada!!!'.. urgh.. -.-

all hail COD4..greatest first person online experience yet..hell yeah~

before I doze off

Just adding in a thing or 2 before I attend to my bed..

Adding to the previous post, I do plan on putting on abit of weight. Jus a few kilos. Then do some intense work out to shape myself out!! ahahaha..problem would be if it doesnt actually work -.-
I will maintain my rugged-ness!!!

If anyone is having problems getting me through MSN even if I'm around, it'll be the connection. It's so fucken crap bout 75% of the time!! anyways, I'm still able to post in my blogs and I guess thats just about good enough..

Off to sleep..

I..shall...KILL...another day...

hee..

by far

Alrights I'm back on a ship. This time, it's a fucken ship called Bekalang. I've met with all the senior officers..

anyways, the captain's first impression of me;

"Haven't you been eating?" -.-

At the time, I was in the technical office with the other joiners. and everyone in the room was BIGGER than me -.- than everyone start saying that they'll make sure I start feeling up -.-

"we'll start by making him smoke!!"

ahaha..shit!!! no tobacco and no fat for me fools!!!

owh, well..I'll keep you all posted. later mates >D

Here we go

alright then. I'm off.

Lets do this!!

its getting closer

just another day..

fucken hell..

the sea-life begins again..

woot woot

hey fellas very sorry for not updating my blog. Eversince I came back, I've been enjoying myself honestly. Hung out with my friends frequently, do stuff with my family, be with my girlfriend, paint my models and a lot of other stuff. its been great.

But unfortunately, they're not meant to last. I just remember that I haven't finish my assignment yet. Which means I need to get on a ship fast. Thank god i remembered sooner if not I'd be in VERY DEEP shit. So deep that I dare not imagine.ahahaha. So yes, I'm expecting a ship very soon.

So before I go, I would like to say..

"Everyone, its been great. I shall cherish everything we all spent together no matter how awesome or pathetic it was. Everyone of you means a lot to me and to me each one of you are the greatest. Especially my family. Thank you :) "