Feel

why are still feeling this way for that person?
I'm not so sure. Because...

You know shit aint going to happen between you two, why bother?
Because I have faith in it. at least abit of it. I have no reason to give up so easily

Its going to be the same all over again with your previous experiences, is it worth it?
it sure is. People will always make mistakes.

will you be able to hold on to it after not seeing each other for so long?
I've for waited 1 fucking year. can you better that?

what gave you drive to keep you waiting that long?
Because I know its going to be worth it. and it did

were there regrets?
a bit. I feel to blame at the end part

what are you going to do about it now?
I'm not sure. Let time slide I suppose

What if that was the last time you'll see each other this time?
if that is what has been intended for me, then Its something i cant do anything about. I have to priorities.

how do you feel about that person now?
still the same. Just some confusion at the moment.

long distance is a bitch isnt it?
it sure is. but it doesnt mean that it wont work.

Whats wrong now?
I believe I made the wrong moves..

Do you think its going to work?
Probably no. its more over to that side

will you let go of that person?
If I know that I have to...

anything else you wanna say on this?
I wish things were a lot simpler =)

Emotionally Unstable

why is this happening? Its not really a completely big time.Ok, maybe it is. Why do I feel so bad right now? this is way too much :(

I feel hopeless, Useless and pathetic. I feel like I don't want to exist anymore. I feel like I just want to throw my life away. Just jump from the tallest building around and hope that my head splatters or break a neck. Or cross the road ahead of a truck and let myself get hit :( why am thinking like this?

Ya Allah, My god. Please keep me strong.

Yeah I kind of wish I had something like this now :(

Just what I need - Midlands

Later on Monday, I went to my long awaited stop; The Midlands. I stayed at Stafford, at WyneDale Guest House. Stayed for 2night for 33 pounds per night it was a very good deal. The room was nice, and had a separate shower and toilet.

This is the town centre itself and the park thats just in front of the rail station

The very reason why I came over to Midlands;

Thanks I had a great time :)

Just what I need - Winchester

Finally got the break I needed after non-stop short courses. There is no fucking way I'm going to spend my holiday down in Warsash. I'll rot and decay :D So I made my plans; I'm leaving this joint. See ya in a week >D

First stop; WINCHESTER

Good thing winchester is in Southampton, so its a very short journey. There I met up with Aziz, his sis; mina, Wan, Ryda and Fyda. Nice bunch of people. The only prob I had was that I had to live in a jungle lol. That guy really has cleanliness+hygiene issues >_> my room is messy, but his is just way too much lol Anyways, I pretty much played Monster Hunter with him most of the time which was great because the game is great if you have someone to hunt with. Besides that, had an eat out at Ryda's place and als went to Winnall Moor. Which a really nice park to be in :) I'm not going to say much and just post pictures