9 Mar 2008

Sick & Tired

Sorry but I had to let it out..

I'm getting sick and tired...I really am...Sick of going through the same shit Over and Over and OVER AGAIN!!! I can't take this much more..I don't feel like I'm trusted...I feel like I'm being push away...

I've tried to prove long enough...I've tried hard enough..what more do I need to do?!!! I'm sick of wasting time..talking about shit where my feelings are questioned over and over again!!! Spend and waste 30minutes(could even be more) trying to convince that my feelings are nothing but true..Why??? Because there's no trust!!! I rather talk about good happy things rather than that...its better that way..heck its healthier!! - no stress

This is why I don't to be the JIWANG-types (no offense)...Where you start listening to all those love songs..watch fucking Korean\Japanese dramas (and being emotional about it)...mushy2 nicks on MSN...all that shit...I was like that before and not anymore..cause I don't see the point..I don't find it necessary..you don't need to be that way to prove your feelings for another..That is why I rather be myself..I want to continue play hardcore games, listen to rock and orchestra and still be able to show some loving..

Yes I know its not easy!! You put yourself in trouble by not believing in 1 another..unless you think there's a love triangle going on so yeah..but thats the fucker's problem...he\she throws all those sweet poisonous words at you...you fail to see the fucking picture thus believe that he\she is the ONE\ Heart\ Teddy Bear...and all that kind of shit they can think of. But then later, after you SUBMIT yourself..you find out there's someone else out there..then you get left behind..owh you're in deep shit now..Yes, Life is full of shit.get used to it..them fuckers deserve to be sodomised with a rusted spear (or anything you can think off)...


The very reason why I don't support 'Having more than one wife thing'...Other countries, it's illegal to marry more than one..I find that good...its safe..lesser problems cause you only have to deal with one..One of my principals: ONLY ONE. So far, thats how its been..Still stick to it..always will..but no!! There are other who say, "Still, you never know one day" or "lah, cakap saja tu"..there's no trust you see..problem...what to do...

ahhh~ I think i'm done bullshitting..But i'm sure some of the things I said are true..I could be wrong..But I don't really care..just needed to let off some steam..I just want US to be happy...thats all :) seriously..I just don't know how much longer I can hold on..

cheers..

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