Its 3.40am, I can't sleep. Currently listening to: Peterpan - Semua Tentang Kita.I was thinking about alot of things. I guess its because I'm really excited. I feel happy and very Excited...about going home :') soon..very soon!! God, I miss home..Not because of the country, but my family and friends that are there (if they weren't there, I wouldn't even give a shit about the country.ahahahhaa)
I've been away for 4 months and it felt so long. I guess it's because it's my first time so far away from home. Who would have thought that I ended up here in UK of all places. Life is different here thats for certain. Its expected. My independence..being able to make my own decisions. Although, I'm sometimes not treated nicely by the guys sometimes, but I don't care, it would have been better then having no bruneians here with me.
Have I changed?? I dunno really. Doesnt feel that way..and I'm glad. OK, I dont like the part of me being messy (I cause the mess in the room), sleepy all the time and lazy (last minute work). Even so, I still survive up till now. What have I accompliseh here? well..maybe I have proven that a weird guy like me can still do his homework and is able to travel alone. Hmm..I' m able to manage my finance and all.
When I tried sleepin earlier, I kept thinking about how is it going to be like when I get back; hows home like, how my family is doing and what have my friends been up to. I want to meet everyone. Of course, family comes first..Mom, Dad, Tina, Adi, Ajim, Arib, Rina, Akim, Nini bini and Laki =)
Friends that I want to meet; Mirul (my bestfriend for 9 years now), Hassan, Faiz, Nabil, Zainol, Ryhme, Abu Bakar, Hanz, Hilmi, Ariffin, Hadee, Zai (ruruchan XD), Fatin (Fart), Siti (Hasan's sister), Fizah(my close friend from SMB), Munirah (Mahirah's sister), Effa (you owe me a picture!!) and...I dunno XD ehehe..I want to go play Counterstrike with guys just like old times, go out with ruruchan, go do crazy things with Faiz and Rhyme, meet up with Fatin..Anything would do :) I miss guys..Yes, the cats at home too XD I wana play around with them again; tiger, stitch, kat and a new kitten i think.
I met my tutor yesterday, he justed wanted me to sign my assignment. I passed and got 64% my shipboard management (which is higher than my other brunei colleagues XD and mr. Weston said that he liked my paper. He said I could have added more (he doesnt know that it was very kast minute work.ehehehe) and not answering 1 of the questions. So for overall, I only has to do 1 resit. Which is my Navigation Aids paper. I did good I guess..for a lazy ass such as myself. The some of the other guys had to do more than 1 resits and do their 1 of their assignments again. I wish them all the best. 1 resit is enough. Thank god the company is paying for our first resits.
Yes, Me and illa's 1st year anniversary is soon on the 23rd. Yeah, no one knew about us till the 21st of April which was illa's bday. I got hit alot by ipin and pu3 back then since they were really curious about who illa's boyfriend was. Yeap, they gave me quite a beating :\ But unfortunately, I wont be in Brunei yet for the Anni.So..I'll think of something.
Looking back at 2007, its been a good year. A very good year for me :) Got a job at the bank after Alvls, got into a couple with Suhailla, Got the BST scholarship, went out of the country (actually out of Borneo) for the first time, went travelling for the first time..because of this, I can actually help my family. I can give some money to my mother each month so that she buy stuff for herself and for the kids. Above all the things I want to and dreamt for in life, is to help my family and give them a good better life. Nothing beats that. I swear that I will bleed and sweat so that they stay safe and happy. Its the best I could do for them.
I have no resolutions for this year at first. I was feeling lost again. I kept going crazy and wanted to be alone again. Away from others. I had to stop. I want to get back on track. It was going well at first and now I'm going to make sure that it remains that way. My resolutions:
- I need to start praying more and more
- Need to stop being forgetful, sleeping in class and do last minute work
- Be alot more patient than I'm used to. I need it when for my sea phase in order to go on with the course.
- A better physical image
- Doing all this without letting myself change ;)
Ceh, ehehhee.I guess I got abit carried away there. I couldnt't help myself.hehehe. Thats about it..Cheers
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