Another sleepless night...

*sigh* again..I didn't sleep for another day. This is the 2nd time this week..I hope I won't have to go through this again for the next few days..I need my sleep..My body doesnt feel god right no..my chest hurts a few moments ago..its normal actually..but i think its related to my lack of slp..

I finished my asignment around 3am..Bored, I played MGS portable Ops and abducted a few guys to join my force..nearly 4am..I went to slp..but ended staying awake..its either the Latte I drank earlier..or things that I kept thinking about..things that are bothering for a very long time..

I guess its just how people view life and how people judge you..Up till now..people still treat me as if i'm a kid.and I'm already 20!! what the fuck?!! Seriously, just because I'm short and abit childish doesn't mean that you can treat me as a child..
"Lum berakal ko ni jul" fuck off!!!

I guess it's something to do stereotyping as well...wait, it is a STEREOTYPE!!.Its a habit of mine you know; clumsy, careless, forgetful, daydream, messy..Still I think about things that are important. About my family, how many I am going to manage to live here in UK. So far everything's ok..I still manage to control my budget..Buy enough food and some clothes soon for Winter. That'll be on once this month's allowance comes out. Anyways, some of the guys I know here can finish up more than half of his allowance before mid of the month. And the stuff he bought aren't even important!! What the hell?!! Then when he's broke he'll ask for food cause he's already broke..Well, not My falut isn't it??!! "siapa yang nda berakal ah?" ....

All I want is some respect as another person, quite a number of people says that I'm not mature. Am I not? I think this because everyone has the same or different definition of "Maturity". As for me, I think I'm matured enough. Just that there's still some parts of me that needs to be improved or changed for the bette especially the SO forgetfull and careless part. Above all, I just want to stay as myself; a hard-core gamer, care for my family and friends, being alone at times, thinking alot..and all that..Most you guys know what kind of person I am (not 100% cause even my closest of friend thinks of me as a person that I'm not)so I don't have to say out everything. All I ask is for people to accept me for who I am..Not too much to ask right?

Yeah, I manage to get some sleep time after my first lecture today. So I was able to stay awake on my second lecture; Shipboard Management. I think thats all for now..I'm going to start on my chartwork..later ;)